| wtf |
[Jun. 12th, 2009|10:17 pm] |
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My sister's ex tried to kill her and her new bf. He was drunk and turned the gun on himself after he shot at them and missed. She waited a week to tell me. He was 47. Bah, death.
Servicemaster had to replace everything including the subfloor to clean up the mess. My sister plans to keep her house. She stayed somewhere else for two nights but is back home now.
My brother stopped his meds for six months, went batshit crazy, and is back in Osawatomie State Mental Hospital.
My family is a bad country song. I'm glad my sister is alive. Fucking A we need a win.
I am applying for admission to a chiropractic program.
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| shelves and swine flu |
[Apr. 28th, 2009|12:59 pm] |
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My more recent girlfriend has been staying at my place since Sunday. I've enjoyed having her here. She hung a shelf in my kitchen and simultaneously made me a casserole. I'm being spoiled and I love it.
Somehow we cannot escape the swine flu barrage. Her work e-mail was full of notifications. She will be at a hospital today in a county of Kansas where there was a reported case of swine flu. Her home hospital (different county) ordered protective gowns, but no masks. First bird flu, then swine flu - what's next, banana flu? Khaki flu? 3.2 flu? The swine flu has been amusing but I'm also a little scared. Check out what the CDC has to say :
In adults, emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include: - Difficulty breathing or shortness of breath
- Pain or pressure in the chest or abdomen
- Sudden dizziness
- Confusion
- Severe or persistent vomiting
How serious is swine flu infection?
Like seasonal flu, swine flu in humans can vary in severity from mild to severe. Between 2005 until January 2009, 12 human cases of swine flu were detected in the U.S. with no deaths occurring. However, swine flu infection can be serious. In September 1988, a previously healthy 32-year-old pregnant woman in Wisconsin was hospitalized for pneumonia after being infected with swine flu and died 8 days later. A swine flu outbreak in Fort Dix, New Jersey occurred in 1976 that caused more than 200 cases with serious illness in several people and one death.
YIKES!!! I'm not ready to die and pneumonia can go fuck itself right in the ear. Where can I find one of those cute masks I see people wearing?
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[Apr. 19th, 2009|09:17 pm] |
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I took Mel's little brother's scooter that he won in a raffle off his hands today. Mel and I putted around, got some beers, and tried to take the big hill by campus.
I'm gonna take it to work and save some money and wear and tear on my beast of a truck.
So yeah, I'm that fat kid on a 50cc. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2009|04:26 am] |
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I officially have two girlfriends. I wish I could talk about them both, but for now I have to keep a lot of things close to my chest.
I've spent more nights in hotels than at home this week. I also worked an f ton of overtime.
I look forward to sleeping in my own bed again. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 31st, 2009|01:17 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
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The majority of my calls at work are from the elderly or the disabled. I hear a lot of sad stories. I used to wonder why a lot of people that work in health care related fields seemed distant and detached to the point of almost being unfriendly.
I have a much better understanding now.
I spent two hours talking to a woman who needed to vent. A woman who lived alone, who had serious health and family stress, and who was concerned about her cat. Sometimes people need to talk. I get it.
What I don't get is how people who ask me what the right thing to do is every other sentence get along in life in the first place? She obviously had the skills to stay alive, live in an apartment, and own a cat. I would think that over 67 years of life she had to make decisions.
However, she wanted me to make all the decisions for her - from selecting her best health care plan down to whether or not she should go to the er in the evening instead of the morning. When I refused to make decisions for her - she kept going back to her poor health, her bleak situation, and how she had absolutely nothing in the world that brings her any joy.
I really wanted to say - why do you choose this? You are choosing how you feel, how you react, and your mindset. You are choosing to suffer instead of choosing to develop your resilience. Of course, the fucking company I work for does not have a "take responsibility for your own life" script that I can access and log.
I've suffered from depression. I've felt so overwhelmed that I remotely entertained suicidal thoughts. When I talk to people like this - I wonder what set of circumstances takes the fighting spirit out of them? What is it that makes people stop taking responsibility for their own lives.
*sigh* back to work. |
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[Mar. 30th, 2009|01:42 am] |
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Soooo ready for a day off. |
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| Sprung |
[Mar. 21st, 2009|07:35 pm] |
I'm working 11 of the next twelve days. The forsythia are blooming in front of the house. I sleep little. Sushi and fuckery. Confusion about fuckery. My phone is blowing up. Burgers and fuckery. I really like sleeping over. I wonder when I can do it again. I don't really think about fuckery but I think about kissing often. I wonder if I could bring anyone over to my place other than her, we are everywhere, she is everywhere. She has no desire to be other than we are right now. I am happy and sad at the same time. My life mate's birthday is on Tuesday. I spend a lot of time in hotels without leaving Kansas. Do I love the world, or am I totally clueless about love? Apparently I prefer love in unusual packaging. I have a talk coming up. I want four careers, and I want them all at once. I miss housemates. I wonder if I'll ever be a wife, considering the fact I love the world. Anthem has a marketing freeze, that's unusual. I called windshield boy a wifebeater. Maybe I should have gone to Virginia. My sister sends me a strange email then does not answer her phones or respond to my reply. I get letters from ranchers in Nebraska who want to give me money. Neale Donald Walsch tells me to do it, now. I have a labour of love and its all about Lawrence. I had a dream that had boy Sparkle and girl Sparkle. I am walking a lot in the woods. I want to ride the range with Gus McCrae. I'm a sucker for a moving train.
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| the future |
[Mar. 11th, 2009|04:13 pm] |
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It is hard to decide what the right thing to do is. Thinking and thinking and more thinking..... |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 7th, 2009|04:37 am] |
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Dear Dekuyper,
You are a prankster. When I'm with you I crave things. Delightful, complex things. Seemingly impossible things. Things so simple and so natural that I can't help but smile at you.
Thanks. :) |
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[Feb. 28th, 2009|04:41 am] |
I just found out I won three hours of paid time off for being a good medibot. Yay!
They are firing people left and right in my department for stupid things. They are also cracking down on bs policies. However, a new training class starts March 30th. Anyone have three weeks to spare to be bored and get paid $1500?
I am applying for other jobs, and I'm starting principles of real estate soon, so hopefully I can continue with the auction plan and finally be able to free myself from the clutches of the East Hills Business Park once and for all! I know I could quit anytime, but I really don't want to take a step backward financially.
Yep. Back to work. |
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| Lawrence - pretty in the sunshine. |
[Nov. 20th, 2008|08:31 pm] |
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I flew a Cessna Skyhawk today. It looked kinda like this:
I got to taxi, take off, fly around Lawrence, and line us up with the runway for landing. It was nuts at first. When I pulled back on the yoke to take off I was scared. My confidence grew once I got to glide with the engine off. There was a little bit of turbulence when we circled to land, but overall the flight was smooth. By the time we landed I was hooked. I'm learning to love things that challenge me and make my heart pound.
Most of my lesson was spent learning about what all these dials do:
I can't wait to learn more!
M and J are leaving on a road trip for a few days. Things are still good with M and I, but there are a lot of unknown factors I will have to wait through. She sent me some mixed messages over the past few weeks.
I'm not sure where these changes will lead but I'm really excited about what seems to be unfolding for me.
I drove out to Hays to see my sister. I came out as poly and she came out and told me she was enjoying a courtship with her boss. Yikes! She is asking her boyfriend of 25 years to move out of their house. If you knew my family or my sister you would crap a cat. This is a huge conversation for us. She never thought she would feel so unstable and so excited at 47.
I'm making some progress on namowrimo, but I doubt I hit the goal by the end of Nov. I've got a good story in my head though, and I'm looking forward to playing with some concepts.
These are exciting, nerve wracking times. Hell yeah. :) |
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| I think I look nervous. |
[Nov. 11th, 2008|12:21 pm] |
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Yours truly, calling her first lot. Photo by Crystal Allen. |
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| update |
[Nov. 7th, 2008|03:05 pm] |
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1. I called five lots at my first auction. I kept my numbers straight and had a good chant!!!! I'm glad the podium hid my left leg, which apparently spazzes out when I experience stage fright. I'll need to make adjustments for that in future public speaking situations. I received several compliments from the crowd, which made me feel more confident that I can eventually make this one of my future businesses. I'm planning my first consignment auction in the spring, so if anyone has some things they want to put in, look me up. Also, if you need an auctioneer to call a charity event, I'm game. No charge. I'm a Col. now, like that makes any difference, except that I know how to build a chant and set up an auction the right way. I'm looking to build my skills and the more lots I call or sales I work, the better.
2. I am taking my first step towards becoming a pilot on Wed. I'll be up in the sky in a tiny Cessna. Flight lessons are expensive, so I will not get to fly as many hours as I would like at first. I'm going to try to do one a week, but I might have to space them out if I get some auction leads. Building my business comes first. The pilot license is a good back up gig and will help me if I ever go nationwide. I can rent a plane and fly myself instead of dealing with the cost and bs delays of commercial flights.
3. I am crazy enough to also try to complete the NaMoWriMo challenge this month. It will give me something to do during those long hours I plan to put in at Vangent to try and gather enough capital to open an auction house without a bank loan. I'm behind a week, since I forgot my laptop cords in Lawrence while I was off chanting.
4. I'm looking for a good broker to affiliate myself with. In order to do estate auctions I have to obtain a real estate license, but I don't want to work for a shady broker for two years and let them take a chunk out of my hard work.
5. I love 50 cent's Money and Power show. I want to learn to be a Boss!
So...yeah. I have a lot of work to do. :) |
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| I think I look good in a dress... |
[May. 17th, 2008|12:15 am] |
Your Score: Butch, baby!
Congratulations! You scored 70%!
My kind of buddy, you are butch enough to cause great confusion in Kansas and other mid-western states. Keep up the good work!
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 10th, 2008|09:14 am] |
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Mel and I are flying out to Oregon tomorrow! I'm looking forward to another amazing Tuesday. |
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| Ok Cupid gave me something different |
[Mar. 3rd, 2008|10:15 am] |
Your Score: Kermit the FrogYou scored 50% Organization, 53% abstract, and 71% extroverted!This test measured 3 variables.
First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean.
Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type.
Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself.
You are mostly organized, both concrete and abstract, and more extroverted.
Here is why are you Kermit the Frog.
You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Kermit is also reasonably tidy. He'll even dress up for interviews.
You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Kermit spends a lot of his time as a reporter collecting facts, but he is also the author of the dreamy song "The Rainbow Connection." You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course.
You are both extroverts. Kermit gets along with everyone. Sure a few folks annoy him, but that's just because they are annoying. Kermit likes to meet new people when he does his job as a street reporter. You definitely enjoy the company of others, and you don't have problems meeting new people... in fact you probably look forward to it. You are willing to take charge when necessary or work as part of a team.
Oh, and in case you were wondering, Kermit starred on Sesame Street years before The Muppet Show.
The other possible characters are
Oscar the Grouch
Big Bird
Snuffleupagus
Ernie
Elmo
Cookie Monster
Grover
The Count
Guy Smiley
Bert |
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| Golly lost goddess |
[Mar. 2nd, 2008|08:10 pm] |
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I woke up to a gorgeous sky, declined lunch in a holding cell, and had a sensible dinner watching horizontal snow confetti freakshow precipitation on my best friend's porch.
I'm a lucky bitch.
You Are Big Bird
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Talented, smart, and friendly... you're also one of the sanest people around.
You are usually feeling: Happy. From riding a unicycle to writing poetry, you have plenty of hobbies to keep you busy.
You are famous for: Being a friend to everyone. Even the grumpiest person gets along with you.
How you life your life: Joyfully. "Super. Duper. Flooper."
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[Feb. 24th, 2008|09:15 pm] |
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A beautiful woman with purple hair and tall socks made me breakfast this morning. Aww yeah! |
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