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wtf [Jun. 12th, 2009|10:17 pm]
[mood |numbnumb]

My sister's ex tried to kill her and her new bf.  He was drunk and turned the gun on himself after he shot at them and missed.  She waited a week to tell me.  He was 47.  Bah, death. 

Servicemaster had to replace everything including the subfloor to clean up the mess.  My sister plans to keep her house.  She stayed somewhere else for two nights but is back home now. 

My brother stopped his meds for six months, went batshit crazy, and is back in Osawatomie State Mental Hospital. 

My family is a bad country song.  I'm glad my sister is alive.  Fucking A we need a win.

I am applying for admission to a chiropractic program. 

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shelves and swine flu [Apr. 28th, 2009|12:59 pm]
[mood |thirstythirsty]

My more recent girlfriend has been staying at my place since Sunday.  I've enjoyed having her here.   She hung a shelf in my kitchen and simultaneously made me a casserole.  I'm being spoiled and I love it. 

Somehow we cannot escape the swine flu barrage.  Her work e-mail was full of notifications.   She will be at a hospital today in a county of Kansas where there was a reported case of swine flu.  Her home hospital (different county) ordered protective gowns, but no masks.   First bird flu, then swine flu - what's next, banana flu?   Khaki flu?    3.2 flu?    The swine flu has been amusing but I'm also a little scared.  Check out what the CDC has to say :

In adults, emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include:
  • Difficulty breathing or shortness of breath
  • Pain or pressure in the chest or abdomen
  • Sudden dizziness
  • Confusion
  • Severe or persistent vomiting

How serious is swine flu infection?
Like seasonal flu, swine flu in humans can vary in severity from mild to severe. Between 2005 until January 2009, 12 human cases of swine flu were detected in the U.S. with no deaths occurring. However, swine flu infection can be serious. In September 1988, a previously healthy 32-year-old pregnant woman in Wisconsin was hospitalized for pneumonia after being infected with swine flu and died 8 days later. A swine flu outbreak in Fort Dix, New Jersey occurred in 1976 that caused more than 200 cases with serious illness in several people and one death.

YIKES!!!  I'm not ready to die and pneumonia can go fuck itself right in the ear.   Where can I find one of those cute masks I see people wearing?


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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2009|09:17 pm]
[mood |sleepysleepy]

I took Mel's little brother's scooter that he won in a raffle off his hands today.  Mel and I putted around, got some beers, and tried to take the big hill by campus. 

I'm gonna take it to work and save some money and wear and tear on my beast of a truck. 

So yeah, I'm that fat kid on a 50cc.  
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I held these boys as babies and give them gift cards every Christmas. [Apr. 8th, 2009|03:33 pm]
Here are some very amusing videos featuring some of my nephews.   Oh my....they are gonna catch hell the next time I see them!   Brian, my oldest nephew, is on the left during "Milkshake".   Brian and Matthew are the Mario Bros.  They don't know that I've found them!  Wooohaahaahaa! 


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(no subject) [Apr. 5th, 2009|04:26 am]
[Current Location |work]
[mood |awake]

I officially have two girlfriends.  I wish I could talk about them both, but for now I have to keep a lot of things close to my chest.

I've spent more nights in hotels than at home this week.  I also worked an f ton of overtime. 

I look forward to sleeping in my own bed again.   
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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2009|01:17 am]
[Current Location |work]
[mood |blahblah]

The majority of my calls at work are from the elderly or the disabled.  I hear a lot of sad stories.  I used to wonder why a lot of people that work in health care related fields seemed distant and detached to the point of almost being unfriendly. 

I have a much better understanding now.  

I spent two hours talking to a woman who needed to vent.  A woman who lived alone, who had serious health and family stress, and who was concerned about her cat.  Sometimes people need to talk.  I get it.

What I don't get is how people who ask me what the right thing to do is every other sentence get along in life in the first place?  She obviously had the skills to stay alive, live in an apartment, and own a cat.   I would think that over 67 years of life she had to make decisions.  

However, she wanted me to make all the decisions for her - from selecting her best health care plan down to whether or not she should go to the er in the evening instead of the morning.  When I refused to make decisions for her - she kept going back to her poor health, her bleak situation, and how she had absolutely nothing in the world that brings her any joy. 

I really wanted to say - why do you choose this?  You are choosing how you feel, how you react, and your mindset.  You are choosing to suffer instead of choosing to develop your resilience.  Of course, the fucking company I work for does not have a "take responsibility for your own life" script that I can access and log. 

I've suffered from depression.  I've felt so overwhelmed that I remotely entertained suicidal thoughts.   When I talk to people like this - I wonder what set of circumstances takes the fighting spirit out of them?  What is it that makes people stop taking responsibility for their own lives.  

*sigh*  back to work.  
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(no subject) [Mar. 30th, 2009|01:42 am]
[Current Location |work]
[mood |awake]

Soooo ready for a day off.  

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Sprung [Mar. 21st, 2009|07:35 pm]
[mood |awake]

I'm working 11 of the next twelve days.  The forsythia are blooming in front of the house.  I sleep little.  Sushi and fuckery.  Confusion about fuckery.  My phone is blowing up.  Burgers and fuckery.   I really like sleeping over.  I wonder when I can do it again. I don't really think about fuckery but I think about kissing often.   I wonder if I could bring anyone over to my place other than her, we are everywhere, she is everywhere.  She has no desire to be other than we are right now.  I am happy and sad at the same time.   My life mate's birthday is on Tuesday.  I spend a lot of time in hotels without leaving Kansas.  Do I love the world, or am I totally clueless about love? Apparently I prefer love in unusual packaging. I have a talk coming up. I want four careers, and I want them all at once.  I miss housemates.  I wonder if I'll ever be a wife, considering the fact I love the world.   Anthem has a marketing freeze, that's unusual. I called windshield boy a wifebeater.  Maybe I should have gone to Virginia. My sister sends me a strange email then does not answer her phones or respond to my reply.  I get letters from ranchers in Nebraska who want to give me money.   Neale Donald Walsch tells me to do it, now.  I have a labour of love and its all about Lawrence.  I had a dream that had boy Sparkle and girl Sparkle.  I am walking a lot in the woods.  I want to ride the range with Gus McCrae.  I'm a sucker for a moving train. 
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the future [Mar. 11th, 2009|04:13 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

It is hard to decide what the right thing to do is. Thinking and thinking and more thinking.....
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(no subject) [Mar. 7th, 2009|04:37 am]
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]

Dear Dekuyper,

You are a prankster. When I'm with you I crave things. Delightful, complex things. Seemingly impossible things. Things so simple and so natural that I can't help but smile at you.

Thanks. :)
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